I just realized...

Maybe I am quite angry with God, but I don't really know how to or dare to express it, I think I am. I am not sure why the fall out, and why the none-desire of going back, but I think that's why. I think about the fall out, and think about working my way back, but never really cared. I was angry when I was close to Him, and I am still angry when I am far from Him. Nothing has really changed. What has changed? I feel more free. *shrug* Still thinking.